Joann Ellis

I had a dream last night and remember vividly that I needed to call you and talk to you. When I woke up it hit that I couldn’t do that, so I sat there in the dark rather depressed. Then I remembered that you already know where you are and that you are warm and happy and no longer sick. That helps, but I selfishly want you here if you could still be warm, happy, and healthy! Love and miss you Mom!

I miss you

Six years and just like yesterday. Love and miss you every day.

It’s been 6 years right now. I miss you everyday. I stand over your grave site where we scattered your ashes and I know you wouldn’t be happy im here. I miss you everyday.

Hi Mom,
I miss you so much! I’m really thinking about you right now. It’s been a rough few years. Julie and Aunt Jo have joined you and Dad – time is lonely. I miss and love the family, but I really miss talking to you and hearing your voice. It’s a lie that time heals pain because sometimes when I think about you I relive all of the grief and loss. I do thank God that you dwell within his House – pain free with all of the people you love. I miss you everyday.

It’s been 5 years today and I miss you so much. I’ve never felt so lonely and nothing will fix it. Nobody will ever understand and I struggle every day to go on but there is no purpose. Existence is the only reality. I’ve been through a lot since you went away. I miss you and all I took for granted. I regret not taking care of things more than I did and putting things off until the time came when I couldn’t make it right. 5 years ago today. You know I love you and I miss what all of our family was before you, Dad, and Julie left. Everyday is such a struggle

It’s been way too long since I last heard your voice. Love and miss you!

I think its going to be me. I’m so tired of trying anymore. It’s hard to believe you would be 80 years old today. I don’t have anything left

Hey there – really missing you right now. I lost everything I had when my apartment burned down 6/27/22. Currently trying to figure things out but last night I was just driving and I realized I was driving home….to your house. I can’t describe what I’m going through right now. I’m just lonely. It’s weird feeling homeless (again). It’s temporary of course and the way I’m physically feeling anymore I wonder how long I will hold out sometimes. I’m going to make it but mentally right now its lonely. Never thought I could feel so alone but trying to make it. I miss you so much but I’m so happy you are in Heaven and I try to thank God for taking care of you, Dad, and Julie in His house right now. I love you so much and you never realize all of the things you should’ve changed or paid more attention to until you lose family.

Suddenly lost it because I needed your hug this morning. I miss your hugs Mom – nothing worse than feeling so lonely without you

Julie joined you and Dad – it’s just us now. It was snowing last night so I was standing outside watching and listening how quiet things are – I realize how much I took for granted and miss the past. Its so hard to move on when I don’t know what I’m doing or how to stop living in the past.

I really miss being able to talk to you. I have some many things going on and I miss hearing your advice. I don’t know what else to put her because my post doesn’t change anything.

Right now it’s 225a 2/26/21 – you just passed away 3 years ago in my arms. It will never get easy and I miss you and Dad so much I can’t describe my pain. Right now I feel like it just happened. Go with God but I will always grieve your loss as it has changed my life

Almost three years. Miss you every day, but today was a little harder. Love you always

Mom, there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about you and missing hearing your voice. I just don’t feel like myself anymore and I miss sharing with you. I hate that I missed so many opportunities and kept putting off vacations and other adventures because of work. I can’t ever get any of that back and I resent not recognizing just how important you are to me (and it’s too late to do anything about it). I’m just so unhappy and broken. I’m trying to keep going but it’s so hard

Over 2 years – I still miss you like you’ve just left. I wish we could sit together and talk again. Nobody understands

Love and miss you

Love and miss you always.

Wish I could wrap my arms around you right now. Love you always

What can I say? You’ve been gone for over 1 year now and I hardly remember any of the time going by. I know that it all still feels fresh and the grief I feel in my loneliness for you is making it difficult for me to move forward. No one understands (including myself) just how hard this has been for me. I can’t keep posting here but I can’t through this – all that I know is I’m alone in a way that I’ve never experienced before (even in a room full of people). I just think of all of the useless time I squandered when I should have been spending more time with you. I can never get any of this back and my loss is beyond words. No one can understand and I don’t want anyone to understand. I just want them to all go away but my heart is so broken.

I am missing you so much today. So wish to hear your voice respond back to me. Will never forget and I love you.

Well it’s been over a year and it still feels as fresh as when I first lost you. I’m lonely for you but I know you are no longer suffering anymore. It still doesn’t change the fact that I’m lonely for you.

It’s almost been one year – I can’t believe it’s been one year that you’ve been gone. Right now I’m starting to re-live everything you went through each day up until the day you passed away. I never wanted to see how sick you were really getting (or how bad you were beginning to feel). I’m not going to re-live it on this post. I just know that I’m lonely for you….not lonely…just lonely for you. I thought the holidays were going to be bad since they are “the firsts” of things without you. However – it’s this month – the “count down” to the anniversary of the first year of your passing. Yes – you are no longer in distress or feeling bad. My human side is selfish and I want you back with me because I miss being around you. This is going to be the hardest February. Not only am I missing you, I’m missing Day, Grandma and Grandpa, and all of the family things we did when I was younger and never thought about them at all (until you don’t have them anymore). I find I’m living in the past and not moving forward and I don’t know what to do anymore.

Really could hug you right now

It’s been over 10 months now. We didn’t get to have our Christmas Day meal and that bottle of wine we would pretty much finish off before we even had our meal. I’m completely at a loss and I can’t explain it to anyone or talk to anyone about how I feel now. I haven’t been able to function and just keep going downhill since you’ve been gone. I know I promised you I would be OK but I would so much better with you. I can’t believe how much of a loss I feel without you.

I think we are all missing you so much. It’s only been 8 months but I feel every moment that you are not physically with us. Everything is so quiet and has no feeling. I miss you so much that I forget that others miss you as well. I just can’t see past my own grief, particularly since your favorite holiday is coming up. I know I’m supposed to move on and live my life, but I don’t know how to do it without you. You know the 11/26/18 was 8 months since you left us and 11 years when Dad left us. It was such a hard day that I can’t describe how I felt. December will be so hard to do without you since you truly loved Christmas. I’m going to miss watching you lie on the couch with all of the lights off except the Christmas Tree. You really loved watching those Christmas lights. Please forgive me if I don’t put up the Christmas tree. I want to honor you because you loved it but it’s a reminder that you can’t be with me to enjoy it. I will get the tree back up at some point but I can’t bear it without you right now. I just love you and miss you so much.

I miss you

It’s hard to believe that you have been gone for almost 6 months now. I grieve for you as deeply as you just passed away. I find no peace and I just keep wanting you back. However, I know that’s my human frailty and that you are with God, your Father, and all of your loved ones where you feel no pain. I will continue to try to move forward but right now I can’t describe how deeply your loss has affected me. As I say everyday – “Lord, please tell my Mom and Dad that I love them and miss them terribly and I hope they dwell in your House”.

Mom – I don’t think I’m going to make it without you.

Mom – I’m missing you so much everyday. There is nothing to describe the feelings/thoughts/emotions I feel with your passing. You are no longer suffering and I know you are finally happy, pain free, and with the people you have loved and missed in your life. You have loved me and supported me unconditionally and I will move forward in life knowing you are with me and (with God’s grace) we will see each other again. You will always be a part of me and I will live my life like you wanted me to and I will always carry you with me. I know you are in God’s house and your spirit is free. Today I believe I saw you again, touching the life of someone important to me. I felt happiness and peace (however briefly) for the first time since God called you home. I grieve for you but I love you like no one will ever know or understand. You are always my Mom. – Jarod

I am praying hard for the family and for you Joann, even though where you are, our prayers are answered. May God hold you close and your family closer. Praying for healing and peace for your family.

On behalf of the family, I want to thank you for the contribution in her name to the Boone County Animal Shelter. It is nice to hear from folks that she knew and cared about her. We appreciate the thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. Her son, Jarod

Joann graduated with us from Boone County High School in Florence, KY. There were 152 classmates in 1960. We, her classmates, want to offer her children, grandchildren, and great grandchildren our sincere sympathy.
Joann was a quiet, kind, and friendly student and we will all miss her.
Please know we have sent a small memorial in her name to the Boone County Animal Shelter since she was a Boone Countian all through her school years.
Sincerely, her classmates from Boone County High School, Class of 1960

We, Joann’s classmates from Boone County High School, Class of 1960, want to offer her children, grandchildren, and great grandchildren our deepest sympathy. Joann was 1 of 152 classmates that year. She was a quiet, kind, and friendly student and we will miss her.
Please know we have sent a small memorial in her name to the Boone County Animal Shelter since she lived in Boone County and attended school there all 12 years. You all have our deepest sympathy. Sincerely, Elma (Jergens) Benne, Bereavement Chairperson BCHS, Class of 60.

Mom, I know that you are free from pain and experiencing a happiness that only one with Jesus can know, but I miss those hugs and that laughter. Too quiet without you. Thank you for being my Mom, all of the sacrifices you made for us, the care and unconditional love that you gave us. I love you beyond words. You are in my heart and soul forever. I am blessed to have been your son. Jason

Words cannot express how it hurts to know that she is gone. Take comfort in the Lord that he blessed us with her presence and that she is in his Kingdom now. My prayers to her family.

Joann was a classmate of mine at Boone County HS. I remember her fondly. Also saw her for years at Colonial Cottage Resraurant. My sympathy to her children,grandchildren and great grandchildren.

Hope Ellis Kinman

I was sorry to learn of Joann’s passing. May her family find some comfort for their great loss in the promise found at Revelation 21:3-4.